Getting Back Into The Swing Of Things

It has been what feels like ages since my last blog post. This is probably the longest I have gone without writing in over a year. It has been approximately three weeks since I last wrote. Now that I’ve made multiple attempts to begin writing this blog, I have no motivation to write at all and really don’t even want to post a blog this week. Why? I guess having gotten out of the routine was enough to throw my brain into a tizzy. The first week of our family vacation I completely forgot to post a blog. I basically lost track of what day it was and since we were away from home and our regular Sunday routine, writing a blog slipped my mind. While I did make it up the next day, shortly there after I fell off completely. The following week we were still on our vacation and spent much of the Sunday traveling in the car. I attempted to write a blog in the car, but obviously didn’t get very far. I figured I would finish it when we arrived at our destination, but then never revisited it. Finally last week we were home for a few days by the time Sunday rolled around, but again, since I had gotten out of the routine I forgot to write, which leads me to the here and now. 

I decided since I have forgotten to write multiple blogs, I am not going to ride myself for forgetting or more likely avoiding my writing. Instead I am going to let it go and give myself that much needed break. I told myself I would be spending this time off from writing trying to figure out a focus for my blog, or more so a purpose. So this is the blog that I was supposed to have figured all that stuff out and now I should be full of bright interesting material and hopefully engaging my readers to the fullest. Ha! Yah right. I’ll be lucky if I finish this blog at all today. 

The thing is, the person I am hasn’t changed. I haven’t gone through any eye opening mystical awakenings this summer. Nope. Instead I have been leading a mostly normal, relatively happy and healthy life without my writing. I like to think I am talented enough to turn the mundane into a spectacular story, but today and the last three weeks I’ve been struggling and I’m not exactly sure why.

Maybe my passion has escaped me? Maybe getting out of the routine has thrown me so much that my wheels are still wobbling trying to get back on course? I think I keep questioning myself as to why I want to write this blog. Well if I revisit my initial reason I wanted to start a blog, it was to encourage myself to write consistently and to gain an audience that would want to read my writing. I also wanted to challenge myself with my writing and have fun in the process. I think I lost sight of my blog purpose awhile ago. Writing the blog became a dreaded late Sunday night chore, where it was torture trying to fill the page before falling asleep at the keyboard.

I’m not exactly sure where I want to take this blog this year, but I do know what I don’t want. I don’t want this to be a dreaded chore anymore. I know I want to enjoy this process and have fun with it. I want to use this space as a place to gain a better understanding of my thoughts on life, while sharing some of the most memorable moments along the way. In order for me to have fun with this, I think it would be helpful if I worked on it daily rather than weekly. Preparing myself throughout the week for my weekly blog post would certainly take some of the pressure off of me and it would allow for a more polished piece as an end result. 

So here's to a new year of blogs. I'm looking forward to having fun writing, posting weekly on Fridays and working on the post throughout the week. Until next time...